so. here i am. i’ve been offically back home for a little over a week now and it’s going….slow.

i think there’s something to be said for the fact that here i have friends who have been my friends for years and years. most people fall out of touch with those who they knew in high school or even before those times. and yet, those are the people who i’ve found it easiest to stay close with. the people who know me inside and out. the people who have seen me grow and change and have stayed by my side through it all. the ladies who will someday (assuming i ever get married) will be by my side at my wedding. or when i have kids. or whatever life will throw at me.

with that being said…i’m also trying to move past all of the people who i formerly knew. the people who made me want to leave my home in the first place. i feel like i’m in a better place emotionally right now than i have been in a long time. i’m confused, yes. and i’m a little scared of what the future might hold for me, but i’m content in that. i’ve got the comfort of my family and the home i’ve always known and that makes everything considerably less terrifying.

i dont have a job right now. it’s the first time in YEARS that i’ve been unemployed. and i have to say that it feels absolutely amazing to have quit the job that i hated so much. i am so thankful that i don’t feel miserable every single day because of one terrible person. i feel liberated. i feel free. but mostly i feel bored because having nothing to do all day is very frustrating. i have a big interview tomorrow and i really need this job. if i get it…it will absolutely change my life. it will be something new and challenging for me to take on and it will be more money than i’ve ever even dreamed of making. it will literally save me from the ONE THING that has been plaguing my life for so long…DEBT.

wish me luck

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