pittsburgh is wearing me thin.

but i guess it’s the holidays that really make me feel sad. i miss my family. i miss my HOME. i feel like i got away from Louisville when it was really necessary for me. i got away from certain things and people that were just very toxic in my life. and i feel like i’ve grown up so much. i feel so much more independent. i feel comfortable being on my own. but the reality of everything right now is that i’m struggling financially. and i just found out that i’m going to have to get a new car. this is on top of my monthly credit card bill. student loan payments. cell phone bill. rent. and the money that i owe janice which is almost as much as rent. so, basically…i’m fucking screwed.

it really makes the most sense for me to just move home and live with my parents for a little while until i get caught up and back on my feet. that would save me $350 dollars a month.

but i’ve got a lease here until May and I’ve got to consider all of my options. My next paycheck is going to be next to nothing because of all the days off I’ve had this week.

I HATE BEING A GROWN UP.
i can’t even do it right.

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